After the Quiet.
07/07/2025
This year, I’ve felt a pull (I guess really a push) to make sure I take time out for me. As an introvert, I just need some quiet time to myself to recharge. I don’t often get, or make that time because I am a mother of 4, plus cousins and family friends. While I do enjoy watching my babies (they grow up so quickly) learn to live life, it is absolutely exhausting!
I learned, yesterday, that I am not only an introvert, but also a sensitive person. Not the kind of sensitive where I am going to go cry in the corner because someone called me a bad name. Lol. But the kind of sensitive that means I am highly affected by my environment–the people, the things, the vibe. I was also brought to the realization, with the help of a special friend, that I’ve been told I was too sensitive. What that special friend doesn’t know is that I’m the one who’s been saying it. I haven’t fully valued the way that I think. I haven’t always appreciated my point of view because a lot of the time, it feels too different.
Anywho, the fact that I am introverted AND sensitive means that as soon as I hear the first whisper/shout of “Mommy!” after a too short night of sleep, my brain instantly feels frazzled. (I know I need to work on my sleep habits, and I say that as I am writing this at midnight o’clock. Habits are hard to kill.) Once I drag myself out of bed, and get the little ones to give me a second to pee, all the morning hanger that comes out in the form of whining, or bickering consumes me. All I want to do is go outside and water the plants. But, no. This one wants to tell me about all the things he’s learned about supersonic jets since 4:30 this morning. The one who just discovered his sarcastic voice is practicing on his sister, and the other two just want yogurt and granola, but they don’t want to go potty first because they already went last night before bed.
All these blooming, blossoming personalities! So beautiful! …and so exhausting. Really, they are wonderful! 😍
I know I’ve got some bad habits to break. I’m reading all the books, actually doing a deep dive into all the things homemaking, homeschooling, decluttering, parenting, simplifying, etc.
But God knows, and he always knew, that what I really need is time to just sit and be. My mom and that special friend told me the same (literally within the past 2 weeks). I need the quiet to gather my thoughts, to process the drama, to release all the pent up energy and emotions that have pooled inside my body.
Then…
After the Quiet…
I can do it all again. I can do it better!
“For thus says the Lord God, the Holy One of Israel: In returning and rest you shall be saved; In quietness and confidence shall be your strength…” ~Isaiah 30:15 (Bible, New King James Version).
